I’ve been depressed, I’ve felt like shit…but right now I feel worse than I have in years. Not only did I have to admit my defeat of living on my own, I know have to watch my sister be engaged. I’m supposed to be married, a kid on the way, and be happy with my life. I’m not at all! I’m single might possibly have a kid on the way still….(shhhh) and I’m a fucking cat lady! This isn’t how my life was supposed to go! I’m not supposed to be alone. I’m supposed to be with the douche bag who left me to move to fucking Texas. I want to go die in a hole. I’m a fucking dead beat. So who would even fucking notice!